woke up at 6:30 with a cracking thunderbolt. yes it rained here. First rain of the winters. A brisk breeze is blowing across. i am loving it. Watched a couple of good romantic comedies. In a good mood 
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First rain of the winters
Confusion
Confusion. Butterflies in the stomach. the Mist is around. Most vulnerable state right now. Trying to communicate. Trying to find a way through the fog. like someone said
“on the path that parts walks the hearth of heart.. the world on fire, burns the sight blind. in each day, in every night.. in this light, walks this soul to break away, to walk a walk that loses its way. ”
Gotta live through it i guess like always.
sigh*
PANCHI
akeli shaam ki chup main
sar jhukaye, khamosh
gehri shafaq kay aks main rangay
meray sangi saathi say achay
tu yehi parinday hain
her roz
sham hotay hi
bina intezaar …
apnay waqt par
gharon ko laut aatay hain
The autumn arrives in lahore.
i walk On
Conflict is the very foundation of my life, or so it seems. Denial of annoyance, pain or grief… a tool…. used to overcome problematic situations. but then there is no problem as such and yet the head spins. Urge to walk away is but pointless since there is nothing to walk away from. The night passes through… broken in moments… the white flag tarnished with red blood drops… flutters. confused about the very fate that rules the life…. i walk on.
HUSH ….HUSH HUSH
a droopy head
a twinkle less eye
a stretched hand
looms in thin air.
the lips quiver.
no soothing word
silence surrounds
hush…hush hush
let the air be
don’t let it suffer
from the agony we share
let it be free
of all sorrows
todays or tommorows
for days to come
for the nights to fall
for the suns to rise
let it be where it heads
like a stallion
with a stead in its feet
run …. run run..
gallop away …
the lips quiver
the hand drops
time stops
hush…hush hush…
just felt like writing and this came up
zoom lijiye zoom kijiye
ok my mind is totally blank here and i have no idea what to write. Its been quite a while since i posted something on the blog so i wanted to write something. well lets see, all you blog buddies, i have been reading your blogs regularly and posting on some as well so i was here even if wasn’t doing much on my own blog. its nice to see you guys getting through different phases of your life. My eid was good. mostly stayed at home on the first day. people visiting and all. Second day had a big one dish party at my uncle’s. I had the whole week off after 2 months of constant work which was refreshing and re-energizing. i am trying to spend as much time as i can in my room lol coz that’s the place where i stay to get my energy back. you know kinda on the exile from the rest of the world. Its like switching off one’s engine or something. its been a while since i went out for an evening walk though. i guess i need to do that. I saw some movies as well. Just light romantic comedies. Wasn’t in the mood for some serious stuff. “my life in ruins” was a good one. Its a nice lil simple movie based in Greece. was fun. RIMs made chanay ki daal so i had to fall of the chair because of that sudden shock 
lol…. i asked her if someone ate that ??? apparently her family members did. Shocking isn’t it? I guess they didn’t have much of choice.And now she wants to read this. Okay everybody stay away from her dal lol. eat at your own risk. champions trophy is on and our stupid cable guy is showing the local adds when there is a commercial break on star cricket and there is a weird zoom mobile ad going on in which muamar rana is modeling. Its freaking hilarious. He says … “zoom lijiye …….or zoom kijiye” lol in such a seductive tone that i was rolling on the floor with laughter . crazy. Anyways gotta go. see ya around ppl.
Price of my desire
a dark angel’s unfaithful kiss
and here i am
standing at heavens door
and i have no desire to knock on it
like a body without the soul
soul of need …. and wants maybe
it was a tilting world
a tilting world it was.
a world turned to nothing but dust
and dust only…slowly withering away
out of the clenched fist ..
in thin air…
and its useless to hold on to dust
isn’t it???
or so i have been told
i stayed up all night to see the sun rise
and now at the brink of dawn
i want to turn away and close my eyes
and sleep for eternity
for eternity is what it will take
to resurrect what i have lost
yes a dark angel’s unfaithful kiss
and here i am
standing at heavens door
and have no desire to knock on it.
yes my desire has a price to pay.
Passing Phase
i hate to admit this but i am feeling really cranky these days. This is what work can do to you. The negativity begins to creep in … well sort of. I know its a phase and like always will pass. For now the light at the end of the tunnel is January when i will get my annual leaves:P. I am also going to buy myself a play station. I think i deserve it after all the hard work i have put in this month. … How are you guys doing?
